After 7 months later I went to the church today. It was so graceful. However, the service it is not same like before.
No choir. But, the church played pre record video on screen at the two corners and we really enjoyed the service. And the video shows the thanksgiving message from church members. It was great, but also feels emotional because, we all couldn’t attend church worship together. Today we were only 25 members of the church. Totally different from 7 months before worship service. But nonetheless, I feel it was a great day.
My Grandma told me. One day I will achieve my goal.
Then I asked her: Grandma, When I will achieve my dream?
Grandma answered: If you have a patience to wait till god’s timing, you will achieve more than you expected.
I asked her: Any reason behind this?
She answered: Yes, of course. There has a good reason always. God is looking for your work and patience. God knows already about what you are thinking now. So, fully trust in him. Never lose your confident middle of your journey. Always concentrate on what you are doing. Don’t give up.
I told her: I will do my best, Grandma.
Then she blessed me.
You know what? Whenever I talk to her, she makes me to up and build my confidence in high.
She is my best best Friend always.
I miss her a lot. But she is always in my heart. I always remember her smile. Lovely and strong person.
I couldn’t get more time to spend with her. But she gave everything and all guidance to my entire life.
She doesn’t even know. Yesterday she asked me about this first time.
Why you send some extraneous messages for me.
When I am going out to buy some groceries, and stationeries,
I make the list in my Mom’s message box.
Whenever she opened the text message, she sees that lists.
Yesterday she asked me. Why, dear, you always do this?
I explain her: Mom, do you remember, when I first away from home for my higher study, I was studying in Singapore, you told me, please keep in touch always. If you are going outside mom is always with you. Don’t worry for anything. When you feel you are alone, just look this message and she sends me that first message it wrote like this…. Make a list and plan it. Then start….
That’s what I feel to write this nowadays too. However, the text wants some personal.
Then she laughed and says oh my dear… you didn’t change.
When I was a kid, My Dad used to build an own Tape/Cassette Recorder.
When I was 9 years old. I used to listen music and at the same time I was learning Music. I really love the songs. Then one evening, my parents working in the garden. I tried to record my song with tape recorder . Unfortunately, it didn’t work. Then I realized some how the Tape recorder non operating. But I really don’t know it was my mistake or else. After I went to my parents, I want to tell them, but I don’t know what will be their reaction. I was confused. What I want to do? Then, I regret to say about the tape recorder. And the night my parents asked me why you are looking so sad? I said nothing. They can read my mind because the are my parents. They know everything I am thinking. Then my mom asked me again, do you want to say something? I said no instead of saying yes.
Then I went to bed, I asked to God what I want to do? Suddenly I feel I am going to tell them what I did. Then I went to my parents. My parents usually sleep after 11pm. So, they were in Living room. And my dad asked me. Jeena, you didn’t sleep yet? I said no. I want to tell you something. But will you scold me? My parents laughed. And they said no. Tell me. Then I tell them what I was did. My dad smiled and said. Jeena, I will check don’t worry. Then he went to find out the problem. And he said it’s not working. Don’t worry. Morning I will go the repair shop. But my mood, it still like before. Then the next day I went to school. And I PRAYED TO GOD, please the tape record should work. Please heal the tape recorder. And my mom smiled and said. When you will be back it will be alright.
Then, the evening I back from school, I go and check the tape recorder. It’s in my parents’ room. I didn’t see there any tape record. Then my dad called me and he said come look at this. You will be happy. Then I was shocked. It’s the Tape record. But it’s different. And he plugged and it was working. I was very happy at the moment I can’t express that feeling. And I said sorry to dad. But he said no worries. You have a new tape record here to play music or you can record. And I asked him where is that old one? He just took me to the parent’s room, another corner, I found another tape record. Not like the old one. My dad said I modify with some part of the old one. Now it’s playing. Go and check it. I was very happy when I play the button.
My dad said. You can also do this in your life. When you feel something you earned before, but you feel it couldn’t useful now. But it will useful for your lifetime. It’s always your lifetime achievement. Just modify every time. And keep it always with you. It will make you happy again and again.